I Thank'd An Ibis

To those that know me, yes, I actually wrote something like this. Go figure.

The day was old when I awoke,
And did spring out of my repose;
I did risk health and safety too,
To enroll among a sacred few.
And there amidst the sea of man,
I glimpsed a Fair where beauty ran,
And 'fore my eyes could steal a glance,
I gained an entry, stroke of chance!

But was too brief, my virgin time,
A few fragments of nature's crime;
Yet while I rode the way back home,
My mind was cast a pleasure dome.
And when I did come back for more,
New Fair did ride on Old Fair's shore;
Then Old helped New across the gate,
And thus was born our second fate.

And there upon the shaking rail,
We did exchange a couple tales,
In mid of which a favor done-
By me for Fair, some smoke and fun.
And then I did learn of a love,
Called same as me by those above,
Three years Old Fair had come that way,
Yet I cared not, I had my day!

And when I chanced some further sights,
The New Fair did conspire delights;
And both did grow to flood my mind,
To leave London's loves far behind.
The nights that 'fore would end with they,
Now did end with these newfound ways,
As south would shake with ecstasy,
The north did turn them into we.

But sudden changes did take place,
And made fairer the New one's face;
The Old Fair had another me,
And thus I thought to let it be.
So now there was a part of ways,
Like Gods above made nights and days,
The Fair of Old was a fair friend,
But with New, I did love contend.

And thus the source of my night jaunts,
Within my mind, which she did haunt;
We would make love and feel it right,
And then I’d wake and love hindsight.
Many a role the Fairs did take,
To fulfill sights of my mind's make;
I needn't visits of repose,
For I would wake and feel them close.

But now no longer can I choose,
And futile lies my former ruse;
The Old no more seems a fair friend,
With her too I do love contend.
And I pray that one day we three,
Shall see things no one else can see,
Against that magic wall will we,
Make moments which I now envy.

And now I question what I feel,
I cannot love, is this for real?
What is the thing that makes me so?
Want them near, not to see them go?
And thanks good God for gifting me,
Black heart with inability-
To speak, to out, to start fair words,
And yet able to feel it hurt.

Thus I'm consigned to view from far,
And contend with my heart bizarre;
O Lord you've cursed me with this fate,
Take it back; love I cannot sate.
Fairs are the Ibis I thank well,
And names profess through that misspell;
But I know not if I’ll love you,
I know I’ll want to, that I do.

Heaven Won't Have Me

I've been very busy writing application essays so I haven't had any time to update this. The idea for this one came while I was listening to "Santeria" by Sublime, however this is not based on it. This is actually a song I wrote in the key of B (I think). Stanzas 1, 2, 4 & 5 are the verses and 3 and 6 are the pre-choruses. The chorus is an instrumental section. The last 3 stanzas are the bridge section. There's an outro bit too but it's just one line repeated over and over and would look somewhat stupid if I put it in here.

Hey little angel, will you help me out today?
I need to find a bus for I have lost my way.
Guide me little angel and I will pay you well,
While you take me there girl, about me I will tell.

Hey little darling, when I did share your years,
My mother didn't love me but I did have no fears.
For many did love me, they showed that they did care,
I repaid them in kind, and gave them heaven there.

And now we're under the bridge, I must tell you true
I knew my way all this while but lost it for you
I will show you heaven like the hundred 'fore thee
I would have joined you there but heaven won't have me

My little doll, I will save you here tonight,
And you won't have to suffer this world's endless plight.
It's time you went to heaven and I showed you love,
It's time you joined the other hundred stars above.

I have taught you well babe and here I pay you back,
Don't worry, your innocence none can now attack;
The night is still but young and I've loved you a lot,
But when morning comes, I will end your worldly plot.

I'll ignite your bones here and send you far away,
But I will remember ... your folks shall know this way.
Hush, no one can hear us, we're alone as can be,
I can't join you up there, for heaven won't have me.

And I remember, where I did teach her well;
I trust that myself, only I saved her from hell;
I was both an animal and a God that day,
I gave her blessed life and took it all away.

And I did no wrong, I did what I felt was right,
I used love and caring to lead her to the light;
Goodbye cruel world, I heard her parting whispers,
I remembered all of their final parting whimpers.

They won't have to see their mothers full of love,
They won't have to cry if their fathers live above,
They won't be telling lies cos they can't be alone,
They'll never live on the streets, they have found their home.