Mother.

'Twas a sunny day I remember,
Some ten and three years ago;
The first time you held me up,
Caressed me, told me that everything
Around me will be fine and will not
Turn around and bite me, hurt me,
Break me...

And I believed, I didn't know it,
But I did - with all the maturity and
Temperance that one who hath
Lived for five years could hope to.
I knew you'd protect. You'd nourish.
You'd care. And that you'd forever,
Be there ...

Thus with gaiety, and child-like abandon,
And great celerity, the years seemed
To pass, and our bond grew stronger.
I wanted to leave you, like all who age
Till thus do, but now I know that I never
Did. The bond between us, could never let me
Believe that...

And then I came of age for the first time,
And you handed me something else
To tie around my neck - as a coming of age
Gift? I don't know. But now you changed my
Room. This one was bigger and it housed
Many a sibling larger than me, elder to me,
So many brothers ...

And with them again the years passed,
Friendships were forged, brotherhood
Betrothed. Games played, and wisdom
Received. You gave me so much, and I
Never did realize it then, nor did I acknowledge
Your generosity. But since, many a times
I have thanked...

I have been grateful, mother, I have.
For whence I had four years left, I felt
Myself think as if I had one. I felt
Myself weep thinking about the day
That the sun would set. How would I bear
Not seeing your face every morn. But now
I know ...

You see you gave me mother. Yes you did.
But I gave you too. Not as much, but
As much, if not more than any of
My siblings, especially those of mine
Own age, gave you. You repaid them well.
But me, mother? Didn't I play my part well?
Didn't I mother?

I mean, i was even of the self
Same creed, of which you do approve,
Which you want, and must have one
Of in all your homes. You must have
Known, the writing was there, the
Hundred was too. Why didn't you see it
Mother, why?

Where did I err, mother dear?
Was it that I didn't renounce the name
That was given to me against mine
Own volition? Was it that I never flatter'd
Any of your hired hands? Never engaged
In base sweet talk that should be confin'd
To elevators? ...

But didn't I do well mother? I answered
Many for you didn't I, for the past nine
Years? And then I ran, and jumped,
And collapsed I did. And don't you recall,
How I sometimes put pen to paper? Even
When the rain wasn't washed away?
Don't you, huh?

But you didn't pick me mother...
You're hired hands chose to turn the cheek,
Pay no heed, and go elsewhere.
I thought you'd tell them, let them know,
I'd have been luminous, if allowed to shine.
Of that I'm sure. But you'll only censure ...
Mother ...

Know this that you're choice, hath
Broken me. The enemies that you've
Protected me from have achieved
Their fell purpose through you. Why
Like the pig, were you fattening
Me all these years, just for the
Kill? ...

Marr'd. Sunder'd. Saunter'd.
Broken. Crushed. Crumbled.
I lie. And now everyday I look at
Your face, and my siblings, and it
Churns my insides. Makes me
Want to vomit the bile form'd 'cause of
You all...

You have wip'd all human compunction
From me. And like the fifth witch, there
Is naught but villainous desires
In my corrupted soul. Black. Dark.
Corruptive. All because of you.
And now you want me to love you again.
To accept the situation, as if it were a mere trifle.
Hah! ...

That whom I once worshipped, now
I heap anathema on. That which I idolized,
I wish now destroyed. And take my siblings
With me. Friends are forlorn, brothers
Be gone. I stand alone. I walk alone.
I smile a plastic smile. Now I talk as in
Elevators ...

I despise you mother. I'm ticking off
The calendar with glee, waiting the day
That separates you and me. But you ask,
When can I forgive you? When will I love
You and my siblings again? Well, to
Quote your dipsomanic manservant,
" Never.
Never.
Never.
Never.
Never. "